When I was four my father, who was a captain in the U.S. Army, received orders to move to Okinawa. It was in the middle of the huge troop buildup in the Vietnam War, nearly two thousand miles from my dad’s new post. The base was crowded, and there were no houses available. Rather than leave my mother; my three-year-old brother, Chris; and me behind in the States, my dad looked for a home off base, “on the economy,” as those in the military call it. That way, we could all stay together. We packed our bags and got our vaccines and boarded the long flight for Japan.

We arrived in November 1966 to an unseasonable chill and a steady rain. My dad scraped together $2,500 to buy a brand-new concrete and cinderblock house on a small street. That house turned out to be a catalogue of terrors and phobias for a young child. The concrete had not set when we moved in: it was cold and damp. My mother covered the floors of our closets and lined our drawers with tinfoil to keep the mildew out of our clothes and shoes. The steady, relentless rain turned the alleys around our house into streams and the fields into marshes. Our sodden little house didn’t stand a chance. Water poured in everywhere. Our ceilings began dripping in dozens of places. We scattered all of our pots and pans around on the floor to catch the rainwater, plinking and plonking all over the house, a symphony of waterworks.

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We didn’t have a telephone, so we went to our neighbor’s to call the Japanese man who had built the house.

“It’s raining in the house!” my mother wailed.

That proved to be too long a sentence for the builder’s few words of English.

“Rain, yes,” he said, in a tone that implied that it was unremarkable for there to be rain. Clearly the idea that water was coming into the house had not made it across the language barrier.

After a lot of back and forth and a number of calls from my mother, the builder decided he ought to come and see the distraught American woman. He entered our house, spotted the pots and the leaks and finally understood, “Ah, oka-san,” he said, using the polite term the Japanese reserve for addressing the lady of the house. “It’s raining IN the house.”

Score one for international communication, but as I recall, things didn’t improve much afterward. The house remained cold, dank, and dreary. But that was just the start of the troubles that plagued our house and contributed to my fearful state. There were lots of lizards—geckos. Some kids love lizards—but they are usually pets in a glass tank, not running around wild in the house like ours were. On Okinawa, a gecko creeping up the bedroom wall was considered a good thing—because they ate the bugs. And there were a lot of bugs. Really big ones. The worst were the cockroaches. Not the everyday thumbnail-sized cockroach that you might find in your kitchen. The huge ones, big enough to fly. The island—and our house—was infested with them. They were everywhere: in the furniture, in the shower, in the corners, on the ceiling. You never knew when you opened a drawer or a closet what would come flying or skittering out. I developed a lifelong terror of bugs. That first year there was also a shrew—a nasty sharp-toothed creature—hanging out one night in the bedroom Chris and I shared. My father donned his combat boots and chased after it with one of my brother’s plastic toy golf clubs, which he wielded like a Game of Thrones broadsword.

Between Breaths: A Memoir of Panic and Addiction by Elizabeth Vargas
Published byGrand Central Publishing on September 13, 2016
Genres/Lists:Memoir, Non-Fiction
Pages: 256
Length: 5 hrs, 35 mins
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Between Breaths: A Memoir Of Panic And Addiction

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20/20 host Elizabeth Vargas penned a memoir about her battle with alcoholism, beginning with her anxiety as a child and her whirlwind career as a television anchor. Filled with insecurities, Vargas turned to alcohol first to unwind, then to cope with the stresses of life. In this breathtakingly honest memoir, she shares her deepest and darkest moments, including when and how she disappointed her children, her bouts with alcohol poisoning, her time in rehab, and the impact her drinking had on her marriage. In it, she takes full responsibility for her actions and makes no effort to paint herself in a positive light, making this an incredible read. Vargas ultimately tells three stories in Between Breaths: A Memoir of Panic and Addiction: how her childhood experiences shaped her world outlook and ability to deal with stress, her downward spiral into addiction and its impact on her family, and her path towards recovery.

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Childhood

As a child, Vargas learned early on that anxiety and panic are not acceptable emotions to share and should be hidden at all costs. She pinpoints one specific moment in Okinawa that shaped how she approached her anxiety and she discusses the harm this has done to her psyche. Complicating matters, she was also an army brat, living in 14 homes on 9 army bases and attended 8 different schools before graduating high school. Being the new kid meant that she was continually trying to fit in, and she was bullied a lot. One of the bullies was her teacher (who reminded me a lot of one of my own), but oftentimes it was awful teenage girls.

Anxiety plays a huge role in Vargas’ story, from her fear of vomiting because it’s a loss of control to how she never learned how to properly manage it (there’s a great book about how another reporter dealt with his anxiety titled 10% Happier). Being in front of cameras on a nightly basis while battling a crippling anxiety takes its toll and things got progressively worse. Like many of us who suffer from anxiety, she doesn’t even remember some of the speeches she has given because she was so overwhelmed with it. Unlike many of us, she found that alcohol helped her to take the edge off and what started out as a nightly glass of wine turned into so much more.

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“Wine helped me quiet the insecurity that had been with me since I was a girl. It never occurred to me to seek professional help. I had never in my life discussed my anxiety with anyone, not a soul…. I still believed it was shameful, a weakness…. Eagle ciras vest manual. It never occurred to me that other people in the world might feel the same way.”